SURGERY...?

Well I was supposed to have hip replacement surgery the last of April, but this is the year 2020, year of the dreaded coronavirus, and everything shut down in March, all surgeries and procedures, just everything. So, there I was, needing surgery and not going to get it. Is that my life or what?!?!? I feel like it is. I know, I KNOW there are so many people that have it worse than me, my word, people have DIED from covid19 and not being treated for other conditions, and died from everything else you can imagine. I AM still alive, but it seems like everything I have every planned has been postponed....pity party, yeah maybe. I hurt. I'm not a good patient. I don't want to sit around, I don't want to lie around, I want to make a garden, can some beans, dig and plant flowers, go camping, go on little road trips, good grief! I want to mow my yard!

Julie has been very good to keep my yard mowed for me this summer. She has been a sweetheart. All my kids are sweet to me, doing whatever they can to help. My grandkids too. I just want to be able to do it myself! hahahaha

Finally, I got back in to the doctor in early May, and what did he say? Lose 20 pounds then we will do surgery. You have got to be kidding me. I know I am overweight, but 20 pounds, really? Joe Combs talked me into going to his doctor in Springfield (Dr. william Duncan), so I did, and he said I was a little over what would be ideal, (I'd lost 10 pounds) but he thought it would be okay. Scheduled surgery for......September! Backlog of all the surgeries that were postponed because of the virus.

The lady that scheduled the surgery said they did have a cancellation list and she would call me if there was a cancellation and I could get in sooner. I wonder though how many are ahead of me on said list...and I don't want anybody to die or anything like that for me to move up on the list, but maybe if somebody doesn't have such a severe case and decides they don't want to have surgery right now in the midst of all this stuff that is going on....back on up there, I'll take your place buddy!

It seems the virus is spiking back up, and I don't know what I think of that. I am not scared of it. I might should be, but I'm not. Bob and I and the rest of the family have been all over the country, all over Missouri, Arkansas, some have been to Maryland, Florida, Alabama, Nebraska, Minnesota, Kentucky, Tennessee, on and on....I just don't know what to think. If I do get it, I get it. If I die, I'm paid for. 

So...here I sit some more, I'm losing more weight, and I think I'll continue to try and lose until I get to where I am comfortable with it. I'm trying to gather up equipment I might need after my surgery, I don't know how much of the stuff they recommend is really necessary, but I am gathering up a pile of stuff. I feel silly in a way. Also cleaning my house out some. I need to clean it out and throw half the stuff I have in the dumpster anyway, but I need it cleaned out so I can get around easier with a walker after surgery, and need to move stuff I use the most around where I can get to it better. 

I have never liked fall and I don't want to wish my life away, but come on September!!!!!!!!

I HAD IT!!!!